bachpan to hi mainu perr-paude atey haryaali bahut pasand si. meri parvarish jyväskylä na de ik sheher vich hoi. is sheher de aale-duaale kayi jangal te talab san. mai te mera parivar aksar uthe jande hunde si. mainu bachpan to hi jaanvar bahut pasand si. mera mann karda hunda si ki mai har kutte-billi nu japhi pa lava. jad mai vadda hoya ta mai dekhya ki lok jaanvara naal kinni berehmi naal pesh aunde han. mainu eh dekh ke bahut dukh hoya. mai ik idda de sangathan naal jurr gaya jo jaanvara di surakhya karda si. uthe meri mulakat idda de lokaa naal hoi jinha di soch mere vargi si.

asi jaanvara nu bachaun layi bahut kujh keeta. asi lokaa nu jagrook karde si, dharne launde si atey idda diya dukana da virodh karde si jithe jaanvara de vala diya baniya cheeza vechiya jandiya san. mai kujh janya naal mil ke ik nava sangathan shuru keeta. kayi vaar asi kanoon apne hatha vich lai lainde si jis karke mainu kayi vaar jail jana pya atey court-kachehriya de chakkar vi kattne paye.

jado mai dekhya ki duniya vich hor vi kinniya samassyaava han, ta mai pareshan ho gaya. is layi mai kayi sangthna naal jurr gaya jive amnesty international atey greenpeace. mai inha sangthna da saath den layi ji-torr mehnat keeti. mai ohna lokaa de hakka layi larrda si jo gareeb san ja jinha kol khaan-peen layi kujh nahi si.

bhave ki inha sangthna ne kujh chhotiya-motiya samassyaava suljha laiya san, par duniya diya vaddiya samassyaava dino-din vadhdiya ja rehiya san. kise nu kise di parvah nahi si. idda laggda si jive kise dusht shakti ne poori duniya te kabza keeta hoya hai. mai samajh gaya ki mai duniya nu nahi badal sakda. mai apne aap nu bebass mehsoos keeta.

mai bahut nirash ho gaya si is layi mai bible parhan da sochya. pehla mai yahovah de gavaha naal thode same bible study keeti si. mainu yaad hai ki oh lok bahut change si te mere naal bahut pyaar naal gal karde si. par odo mai badalna nahi si chahunda. par hun mere halaat kujh hor san.

mai bible chukki te is nu parhna shuru kar ditta. is ne mere zakhma te malam da kamm keeta. mai dekhya ki bible vich eh kayi vaar dassya gaya hai ki sanu jaanvara naal berehmi naal pesh nahi auna chaheeda. jidda kahauta 12:10 vich likhya hai: “dharmi apne paltu jaanvara da khayal rakhda hai.” eh parh ke mainu sakoon milya. mainu eh vi samajh aa gayi ki parmeshwar sadde te dukh nahi liaunda. sago sadde te dukh is karke aunde han kyoki asi parmeshwar da kehna nahi mannde. nale mai eh vi sikhya ki parmeshwar sanu bahut pyaar karda hai atey dheeraj rakhda hai.—zaboor 103:8-14.

mai yahovah de gavaha de branch office nu ik chitthi likhi atey pavittar bible ki sikhaundi hai? kitab mangvayi. kujh same baad yahovah de gavah mere ghar aaye. ohna ne mainu puchhya ki kee mai bible study karni chahunda. mai ha keh ditti te fir mai meetinga te vi jana shuru kar ditta. is tarha bible di sachayi ne mere dil vich jarrh farrni shuru kar ditti.

bible di madad naal mai apne vich kayi badlaa keete. mai cigarette peeni atey haddo vadh sharab peeni chhadd ditti. mai apna pehrava atey apni boli vi sudhar layi. (romiya 13:1) mai adhikariya da aadar karna shuru kar ditta. pehla mai anaitik zindagi jeeunda si, par fir mai oh sare kamm chhadd ditte.

mai jinha sangthna naal jurrya hoya si ohna nalo nata torrna mainu bahut aukha lagg reha si. mainu laggda si ki idda kar ke mai ohna nu dhokha de reha ha. par jado mai sikhiya ki parmeshwar da raj hi duniya diya sariya samassyaava nu hal kar sakda hai, ta mai sochya ki hun mai poori tarha parmeshwar de raj da saath devanga atey doojya nu vi is bare dassanga.—matti 6:33.

pehla mai sochda si ki duniya vich sirf do tarha de lok han, change atey maarre. mere hisab naal jehrre lok maarre si mai ohna da virodh karda hunda si. par bible to mai sikhya ki sanu kise naal nafrat nahi karni chaheedi. is layi hun mai sarya nu pyaar karda ha atey ohna nu parmeshwar de raj bare dassda ha. (matti 5:44) jado oh is raj bare sikhde han, ta ohna nu khushi, mann di shanti atey change bhavikh di umeed mildi hai.

mai sara kujh yahovah de hatha vich chhadd ditta hai. idda karan naal mainu mann di shanti mili hai. mainu poora yakeen hai ki oh srishtikarta hon de nate insaana te jaanvara nu hamesha dukh nahi jhalan devega atey na hi is sohni dharti da naash hon devega. oh apne raj raahi dharti te hoye sare nuksan di bharpayi karega. (yasayah 11:1-9) mainu bahut khushi hai ki mai bible to eh sachaiya sikhiya atey mainu doojya nu vi is bare dass ke khushi hundi hai. hun mainu nahi laggda ki mainu duniya badlan di lorr hai.